When modders start to talk..

Pergh.. baru masuk 2 hari aku officially bercuti, bahang2 kebosanan dah dapat aku rasakan.. belum seminggu pun lagi.. hahaha, serius sangap!.. hahahah.. sian aku, tinggal sorg2 kat rumah, mmber2 sume belom abes paper lagi.. ahahaha.. adeh2, pikir2 balik, rase cam menulis blog, tapi serius taktau nak citer pasal apa..

hidup sekarang dah lengkap, so far, apa yang aku perlu, semua aku dah ada.. tinggal nak kerja, dan nak beli rumah.. huhuhu.. wei, skarang aku nak crita pasal apa ni?..

ahaha.. sengals.. zzzzzzZZZZZzzzzz…

bagi la cadangan!

cite pasal tsunami politik malaysia?.. ahaha, dah basi la..

uhm, takpun aku nak maki hamun JPJ jer.. ala, bosan plak korang baca nanti..

ataupun korang nak aku dedahkan msg2 aku dgn my-sayang sejak hari awal2 aku bermesej dgn die?.. hahahaha, menarik, tapi aku tamau hebohkan.. haha..

uuhhm.. korang tolong la bgtau aku ape topic menarik yg aku bley cerita.. bg kat comment aku, haha, so, topic sape2 yang terpilih, akan dibelanja KFC.. hahaha..

okay?.. boleh?.. okay aku tggu… cpt sket, aku sangap tahap cipan malaya dah ni..

I will never find another lover sweeter than you,
Sweeter than you
And I will never find another lover more precious than you
More precious than you
Girl you are close to me you’re like my mother,
Close to me you’re like my father,
Close to me you’re like my sister,
Close to me you’re like my brother
You are the only one my everything and for you this song I sing

And all my life I’ve prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I’ve prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

I said you’re all that I’m thinking of…..baby

Said, I promise to never fall in love with a stranger,
You’re all I’m thinking of, I praise the Lord above,
For sending me your love, I cherish every hug,
I really love you

And all my life, baby, baby, I’ve prayed for someone like you,
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you, baby
All my life I’ve prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do, love me

You’re all that I ever known, when you smile, on my face, all I see is a glow.
You turned my life around, you picked me up when I was down,
You’re all that I ever known, when you smile on your face all I see is a glow,
You picked me up when I was down
You’re all that I ever known, when you smile on your face all I see is a glow,
You picked me up when I was down and I hope that you feel the same way too,
Yes I pray that you do love me too

All my life, I’ve prayed for someone like you,
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I’ve prayed for someone like you
Yes, I pray that you do love me too
All my life I’ve prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I’ve prayed for someone like you
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

luv u syg..
very2 much..

Selamat Hari Raya kepada semua..
Kali ini aku nak tulis lagu plak.. sebenarnye ariktuh aku dah ade bahan nak cerita kat semua org, tapi ntah la, aku pikir2 balik, aku macam malas pulak nak tulis cerita tu..

cerita tu, agak menarik jugak( tatau la pade korang), cerita pasal kisah lame aku jugak la.. tapi ni pasal orang baik2, bukan org yang pedajal aku, ni cerita pasai orang yang sangat baik, yang pernah aku sayang sangat, dan aku masih sayang rasenye sekarang..
takde rase-rase arr, aku memang maseh sayang.. dan membuatkan aku conpius lately, sapa yang nak disayang..

haha, takpe, aku malas nak cerita pasal tu dulu, pasal aku rasa aku dah ada kata putus, untuk siapa yang harus aku lebih sayangi..
Mungkin aku nyanyi lagu Nidji hari2, (hapus aku), ade la tuhan meyakinkan aku yg die ni memang bukan milikku.. maybe.. cos i just got the feeling, yg lg satu ni lebih baik, bukan yang lama tu, since die pun dah jumpe die pnyer lucky star.. tap aku still kompius lg.. hahaha.. ntah la..

biarkan lah ceritera hidup aku tu dulu, nnti aku cerita lagi, Ni..

La ni aku nak tulis lirik lagu "Ku Mahu Kau Tahu".. nyanyian oleh Band malaysia yang aku SUKA sangat.. Hujan.. (Hujan Rocks!!)..

kalau korang nak dengar lebih lagu diorg, lawat arr page aku, ade 2 3 lagu aku boh.. Hujan ni best sesangat bg aku.. so, aku nak tulis satu daripada lagu diorang.. and aku nak tujukan kat seseorang ni.. yang mmg jauh seberang laut..

ku mahu kau tahu.. ya

G                                    C
tersudut termenung jauh
G                           Em        D
mengenangkan nasib kita
G                                 C
kita miliki separuh
G                            Em    D    C         ??
berbentuk hati cinta namanya

Bm                    Em
walau kau jauh
C
ku sentiasa menunggu mu
Bm                    Em            C
hatiku imbas kembali memori
              Bm    Em
walau kau jauh
C
ku berjanji kan terus tunggu
Bm                     Em
dipisah lautan biru
C
ku mahu kau tahu
D                                G
aku kan terus menunggu

G                               
jaga benar gambar ku
            C                            G
dalam telifon bimbitmu
G                         Em                D
jangan pernah sekali kau buang
G                        C
seperti cinta ini yg terbuku
G        Em      D     C        ??
akan bersemi jua

Bm                    Em

walau kau jauh

C

ku sentiasa menunggu mu

Bm                    Em            C

hatiku imbas kembali memori
              Bm    Em

walau kau jauh

C

ku berjanji kan terus tunggu

Bm                     Em

dipisah lautan biru

C
ku mahu kau tahu

D                                G
aku kan terus menunggu

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G
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C
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Em
|—|—|-X-|—|—|—|
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|—|-X-|—|—|—|—|
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D
|—|—|-X-|—|—|—|
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|—|-X-|—|—|—|—|
|—|—|—|—|—|—|
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Bm
|—|-X-|—|—|—|—|
|—|—|-X-|—|—|—|
|—|—|—|-X-|—|—|
|—|—|—|-X-|—|—|
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??
|—|—|-X-|—|—|—|
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Kepada yang nak try nyanyi tu, bleh ar jugak, tapi guna chord yg aku provide, pasai kalau pakai yg biasa lain bunyi die..
kalau korang rasa bunyi tu pelik sket, hehe, aku tatau ar, pasai aku main bunyi sedap jer..

zakwan, jiji, sile cek kebenaran chord diatas..

dan kepada yang jauh tu, ya, aku mahu kau tahu, aku kan terus menunggu..

Sigh.. dont know what to put as a title, but aftershock sounds cool.. haha..

actually, this is more like a sequel to what i wrote before, the 3 chapters of "I regret knowing you"..

Here, i would like to say, that the reason the blog is wrote are:

- bukan nak ungkit2 ke ape..
- bukan nak tunjuk emo..
- bukan nak mintak simpati..
- bukan nak tunjuk tak puas hati..
- bukan nak memberontak..
- bukan nak sound kawan2..
- bukan nak prove apa2..

and ape2 la negative thoughts yg maybe terlintas kat minda korang2 yang baca (kalau bacalah)…

Memang aku saja nak share experience dengan orang, and maybe, memberi iktibar, kepada sesiapa, yang maybe terlibat dalam situation yang quite similar..

Just nak bagitau.. itulah yang sebenarnye..
Aku bukan tulis sebab marah sapa2, atau terasa ke apa, cume just nak cakap, whatever that has happened, has change my life yang sekarang ni..
    And actually, memang changed alot..
       But, orang kata, life must go on.. whats there in the past, stays in the past..

Bende dah tinggal dalam setaun lebih dah, dan aku dah maafkan dah semua2 orang yang ada tersebut dalam story tu.. Aku maafkan korang.. Cause, takde gune aku nak dendam2.. buat sakit hati, buat aku cepat tue… buat dapat sakit je..

Cume, dari apa yang deh berlaku, aku amek iktibar..
We learn from mistakes.. and life must go on, and we must look forward.. mengenang bende2 macam ni takde gune..

so kalau ade sesapa yang mengalami situation yang quite similar, banyakkan bersabar je.. sabar, sabar, and get on with life.. ade banyak lagi orang baik2 kat dunia luar yang kite belum kenal..

21 tahun aku hidup, dah macam2 jenis orang aku jumpe, penipu, suke cakap besar, backstabbers dan yang terlebih baik sampai org jadi menyampah pun ada..
Ada.. dunia ni penuh pancaroba.. hahaha.. poyo la pulak..

The main thing is, be professional whe facing this kind of people, api lawannya air, kalau kita bagi api lagi, bende jadi makin besar, takkan settle, dan mungkin membakar orang2 lain yang kene mengena.. betul.. itu hukum alam..

Maybe ape yang dah berlaku kat aku ni, karma dari ape yang dah aku buat sebelum ni kot.. mungkin la.. because i believe things happen for a reason..
Tuhan itu Maha Berkuasa, Maha Adil, Maha Kaya.. sepuluh kita curi, sepuluh die balas balik..

Mungkin sebelum ni aku pernah sakitkan hati mana2 girls, maybe accidently, and i never beg for forgiveness, so, aku dapat la balasan balik..
Or maybe bukan girls, maybe aku sakitkan hati mak bapak aku.. family ke.. kita bagi orang lain sedih, Tuhan akan balas balik dengan kesedihan.. so, terimalah dengan akur..
Yang penting, sabar.. jangan bertindak ikut nafsu..

Pepatah melayu lama dah banyak sangat cakap, ikut hati mati, ikut rasa binasa.. (betui ka?.. hehe)..

So, kesempatan ni, aku nak amek, again, untuk ucapkan Selamat ari raya kat korang semua pembaca2 sekalian, terima kasih kerana sudi membaca luahan hati yang tak berapa puitis nik..

And lastly, ampun maaf dari hujung rambut hingga hujung kaki, zahir dan batin.. kepada sesiapa yang berkenaan, mahupun yang tak berkenaan, dan juga sesiapa yang ada tersinggung dengan blog aku nih… ecehwah.. hakhak..

until next time, kalau jari jemari aku free, aku tulis la lagi.. itupun kalau korang sudi baca..

Sankyu,

Aihz.. tired.. juz back from class.. but the best thing for today, is, i successfully bluffed my lab instructor bout my reports.. haha.. sorry, but i need to survive man.. this kinda things happens in real life anyway.. bluffing ur boss, whatever..

haha.. but she only give me one week to cmplete all 3 reports.. hehehe.. thats enuff for me, since the report is already there at the first place..

hurm.. enuff babbling.. now comes the story, the saddest part of all, the one that gives the name to this story..

Here it goes:

…so i thought everything just end there, the moment i talked to him face to face, and she, leaving me with just a ’sorry’.. but no, i thought wrong..

    The next day, i get to know that, last nite, my ‘friends’ went out wit this girl, and his boyfriend.. to hang out, like usual, except without me.. and their excuse, since they know about what happened, they thought its not necessary for them to ask me to came along, cos her boyfriend is there..

well.. a valid reason i say, acceptable.. they just don’t want any problem to happen.. true, theres nothing wrong with that. BUT…

but, wait, have i mention about what happened before that ‘last nite’?..
no rite?.. ok, after all the quarrel at upten, and both parties leaves with "satisfaction" (meaning me and the boyfriend thought we are done, and nothing is there to argue about), i went home..

After i finished my drinks with my friends, and all of them asking me to chill out, i went home.. on the way back, her boyfriend called me, and said sorry..

Sorry because just now he actually lose his temper.. and i said, don’t worry about it.. "i understand your situation and i’ll be angry myself if i were you"..
so i thought, its all done.. in a very gentle way..

Now, back to the story of my friend going out..

The next day, sharil called me out for a drink in upten.. so i come, and i never expected the things that is gonna happen..
He said to me, why.. why did i do like that yesterday..

i was stunned..

and i ask, what, "what did i do??"

it turns out to be, last nite when they hang out together, this "boy", who i thought have settled all the stuff wit me, and beg for apologize later, tells them his side of the story..

He said, i took he girlfriend away from her,  and stop next to him at the end of the class, purposely to show, or to brag that i got the GIRL..
(remember in part2, where i stop to ask the guy if he needed a lift?)

I was like, BUGGER, F**K u son of a bit*h…
damn.. damn.. every word that came across in my head is DAMN.. DAMN that boy and DAMN the lady..

and i couldn’t believe that the girl, that bit*h also didn’t say any word.. c’mon, at least that nite YOU, yes YOU could say sumthin about it, at least fix the situation la..
at least you can convinced the people that i didnt act that way, c’mon, you are in my bloody car, wit me, and you know i ask that guy for a lift, not to brag about you sitting in my car..

But no, she didnt say a word, and thus, they all believes that i purposely brag, macamlah aku nak tunjuk sangat aku bangga bawak ko, and macam aku ni lah yang ber-iya-iya sangat nak kat kau.. sorry la babe, but tis part really hurts me..

After all the helped i gave, and the frenship (memang la aku tak mintak balasan.. cume tak sangka), you just agree wit whatever your boyfriend said, and leave me being the one at guilt?..
Who was the one crying, saying that i don’t wanna be fren wit u anymore?.. is it me?

Thus, i said to sharil, "Some people are just plain stupid.."

And the boy go offended.. i haf no intention to say that to him, i was saying the boyfriend is stupid.. but he got offended, and we both argue..

For about a month, i didn’t speak to my best friend, just because of the stupid couple.. and people asked me, why i fight wit Sharil?.. its very hard for me to explain why..

And from that day, i damn hated you, both of you..

Sorry but this involves my pride, maruah aku, because you make people believe yang aku nak sangat kat ko, aku fight dgn boyfriend die, and in the end aku lose?.. heck? none of those ever happened..

I am not angry with any of my friends, because they don’t know the real situation, the actual things that happen.. but i still don’t know, which side of story they all believes.. sad..

Thus, thats why the title of the story is like this, Damn girl, i really regret knowing you in the first place..
If i don’t know you, none of this shit will happen..

And until today, you still go out with my friends, and when they wanna go out wit you.. they wont say anything to me..

My life really changed after what has happened to me..

They way my friends react, the way people look at me.. and i still have to face you everyday in life, for at least another two year.. damn i hate uniten..

    I feel sorry for my friends who like macam kena sorok2 kalau nak keluar dengan kau.. honestly i don’t mind, just say shes coming, and i wont be there for sure.. but there is no need to hide please..

This story happens around 1 and a half years back, but it is still there in my memory.. its hard to forget it, even though i try to, because you are just there around my life..
And the reason i felt like writing this, because after sahur this morning, my friends were discussing about nak berbuka kat PizzaHut, and it sounded mcm dah planned lama.. And when i ask bile?.. he say.. "F**** yang ajak, so pasal tu kitorang tak bgtau ko.." Oooh.. nevermind.. no hurt feelings, serious..

but there, there is the proof on why i couldn’t forget all this things..
i try to "get over it"… but for the moment, i don’t think so..

until i am out o uniten.. maybe..

[End]

Haha, i try to put some songs for this part2, so that korang baca takde arr boring sangat, but somehow it doesnt work.. duh, ape da html ni, kadang2 tak paham..

Nevermind the song, back to the main purpose, telling u guys the story..

where was i?..
uhm.. after i went for  drink with her rite?..

rite..

hurm.. how should i start.. uhm.. okay, like this..

After that day, we always go out minum, very often lah i think.. lepak sana, lepak sini, she say she didnt know much about the place around, so memang hari2, boleh kata hari2 gak la, aku bawak die ni keluar.. jalan2.. pi minum sana, pi minum sini..

I dont know lah kalau aku sorang je yang rasa kan, but really, at that time, aku rasa kalau korang nampak die, aku ade arr biasanya, and aku mmg ptg2 memang akan keluar dengan die..

Pegi putrajaya.. mmg tak buat ape2, minum2 and borak2.. tu je..
I hate to admit, but seriously, eventhough shes not my type of girl, tapi die mmg friendly, funny, and very easy to hang out with.. somehow i felt happy and comfortable at her side..
Sedar tak sedar, aku rase jatuh hati pulak kat die ni.. haiz.. ntahlah.. aku pun taktau what kind of feeling, tapi memang aku senang la dgn die..
Sayang memang sayang, tapi cinta mungkin belum ada lagi..

a few months later, aku pun intro die ni kat kawan2 aku, cos die pun kadang, klua dengan kawan baik die tu sekali.. so aku pun bawak la kawan2 aku..

Lepas itu, (aku cut short la cite, malas nak cerita banyak2), kami sekumpulan rakan2 memang selalu sangat hang-out, pegi hartamas, just to chill and play cards.. infact, mane2 je lah, pegi main card, pegi karaoke (sekali)..

And yang aku takleh percaya, aku sampai ke PortDickson lepak2 dengan die, Genting (sekali) and paling jauh sekali, Penang.. ahaha, gile tak gile(takde la gile mana), tapi aku pegi..

Sumer pasal die.. Banyak sangatlah jalan2 and hang-out punyer citer ni.. but aku mmg taknak cerita la.. pasal aku malas nak ingat semua bende2 ni.. kalau boley aku memang nak lupakan je..

Pernah sekali kereta die eksiden, time mmber die pinjam, time tuh aku n die, n member2 sume tengah dekat Summit Subang, main pool..
Kitorang mmg rush balik terus, nak settle kan kete die, cos tanak kasi father die tau, sampai aku terpaksa tipu mak bapak die untuk cover up…
Hahaha, tapi tatau cemana, orag tua lebih berpengalaman, and maybe die pun tak biasa menipu.. terkantoi.. hehe, padan muka..

And ade one time, die gaduh dengan bestfren die..
Aku try tolong diorang get together balik..

Banyak sangat pahit manis yang berlaku, tapi aku memang takda mood nak ingat balik.. Banyak, tapi sorry, aku malas nak cerita.. thats not the main point..

All that while, aku admit, mmg aku suke kat die, tak penah bagitau die, tapi aku rasa, bebudak pompuan n, diorang tau..
Cos aku pun rasa, agak obvious jugak..

But, that time mase aku pegi PD dengan die, aku ade perasan die gelak2 dgn kawan die pasal sms yg diorng dapat.. Aku dapat rasa, yg die ni that time is seeing another guy, so aku tak letak high hopes on die.. and mmg aku try untuk matikan terus hope tu.. serious, aku bukan nak deny, tapi mmg aku try nak matikan feelings yg aku ada.. from that time, mmg aku just nak be friends saja..  tamau lebih dari itu..

from PD, until the day at Penang, yg time balik tu, aku drive to kl, sekali dengan mak die dalam kereta..
And die nampak macam tak berapa happy, macam tension sket..
and aku rasa, mamat yg msg die tu marah die kot, cos tak bgtau nak pegi penang dgn kawan2… and the fact yang die tau aku tak suke dgn mamat yg msg die ni, maybe pasal tu die tak bawak sekali..
‘Mamat’ yg aku mention ni, actually aku takde problem dgn die, cume die ade problem dgn kawan2 aku seblom ni.. so thats why aku mcm tak berapa baik dgn die..

Lepas Penang, kitorang cuti sem..

Then after that, aku tak berapa ingat ape2 yang berlaku, tapi memang aku makin jarang hang out dengan die..
Bukan apa, actually aku memang menjauhkan diri daripada die..
Aku try untuk tak jumpe die selalu sangat, cos aku dapat tau balak die unhappy..

Walaupun kitorang jumpe kawan2 je, tapi balak die ni unhappy, so, the best solution is, aku jarang2kan time untuk jumpa die.. biarlah die spent time dgn balak die lagi.. Nak buat apa aku kacau2..

Lama jugak aku tak berapa nak layan die ni.. until.. one day, die msg aku, die cakap die sedih, die nangis..

Die kate aku dah tak nak kawan dengan die..
Aku pun that time macam, wtf?.. rasa bersalah mesti arr beb, org yg aku pernah suka, nangis pasal aku.. wahwah.. time tu aku pun rasa bersalah gila.. So aku kate la, okay2, petang ni kite lepak sekali..
Aku cakap semua bende kat die, aku kat bukan aku tamau jumpe die, its just that aku nak giv her more time wit the boyfriend..

So, ON THAT DAY, the day where it all began, die suruh aku fetch her to class, so that later die boleh keluar terus dgn aku, takyah drop kereta die kat ilmu..
Aku pun, amek la die, pegi class, time tu manufag-lab.. kat ILSAS..

mase sampai lab, banyak muka yg aku tak berapa kenal, so aku agak diam la..
Dekat lab die duduk dgn boyfren die, aku plak dok blakang dengan sorang mamat ni, aku baru kenal, Syafiq name die.. (kalau tak silap)
Die ckp kat aku die baru, aku tanya die, "hang datang sini naik apa?".. die kate, tak silap aku, jalan.. Aku pun mcm, mak-aih, "dari amanah hang jalan?".. then, aku offer this guy a ride lah balik nanti.. jauh tu beb..(ILSAS dgn Amanah jauh gila, serius)

Fisrt day of lab, so, takde buat ape2, lepas briefing tg safety and equipments semua, lab abis..
Then aku pegi kat kereta, this girl pun dtg.. tngglkan balak die, datang kat keta aku.. masuk dalam..
Then aku drive, nak keluar, nampak arr mamat ’syafiq’ nih.. aku stop, aku ajak die masuk kereta..
Mamat ni pulak, tengok ade awek kat dalam, die segan.. die kate takpe, die jalan dengan mmber, aku plak kate takpe, aku antar mmber tu skali..
Cakap punya cakap, die insist untuk jalan.. So aku pun kate, "Okay bro.."

Sedar tak sedar, rupenye, time aku berenti, balak die ni, and their frens, tgh lepak kat pondok depan lab ilsas, isap2 rokok, usha aku.. (this one will continue later..)

Then aku drive terus lah, mmber baik aku sharil ade call, ajak pi minum kat upten.. So, upten lah tempat aku tuju..

Sampai kat upten, semua mmber dah ada.. then aku pun duduk, dgn this gurl sekali.. lepak2, gelak2.. tapi aku tak sedap hati..

Suddenly, budak pompuan ni blah jap.. die pegi kat table yg balak dgn kawan2 balak die duduk.. pastu, die ngan balak die blah.. pegi kat kereta balak die..
aku tengok je lah.. then aku sambung minum bancau, and borak2 ngan mmber aku..

Beberapa menet selepas itu, Balak die ni datang.. Duduk table sebelah aku, muka tak boleh blah.. bibir menggigil gigil.. and gurl ni pun datang sekali.. tapi muka mcm nak nangis, tapi die tak dtg dekat aku, die berdiri jauh sket..

Mamat ni tak bleh blah langsung.. tiba2, duduk table sebelah, bibir menggigil gigil.. aku ingat sejuk ke, deman ke ape.. tetiber nak jerit kat aku,

"Kau suke kat die ke?"

Aku terus rasa pelik, mamat ni macam nak pukul orang dah, tapi tak berani kot pasal aku duduk dgn member2..

Die tanya sekali lagi, "Kau suke kat die ke?"

Then aku pun, mcm nak cakap la kat die, na explain, tapi die mcm tamau dengar, die kate, "Kau meh sekejap".. die ajak aku duduk kat table yg ‘dekat’ dengan member2 die pulak.. hahaha.. lawak2..

Aku ikut.. duduk.. then aku cakap, "bro, bende2 camni takyah bawak gaduh, kite duduk, cakap elok2"..
discuss punya discuss, aku cakap kat die, aku mmg takde feelings kat minah ni..

mmber die sume usha slack..

aku explain2, then die pun macam understand.. aku cakap,

"awek die yang nak sangat jumpa aku, aku tak ajak pun"
"Aku pun tau ko tak suke die jumpa aku, aku avoid tapi die menangis, cakap aku tanak kwan die"
"Memang, aku admit, dulu aku suke kat die, tapi sekarang aku dah tak ade feelings"

cakap punya cakap, mamat ni pun ‘mcm’ understand..
die pun cakap, tak berbaloi gaduh pasal perempuan.. betul, aku agree.. aku igt brother ni mmg bertamadun gile arr.. but then die still hot.. so, semua dah settle, aku cakap kat die, aku balik tabl aku balik..

Sampai kat sane, awek die tgh cerita kat mmber aku, cakap apa aku taktau.. aku bukan tuhan, boleh dengar semua bende..
Bile aku sampai, die bangun, blah and cakap,  "Sorry Roy"…

And sampai hari ini, aku rasa, itulah Perkataan terakhir yang aku dengar dari mulut gurl nik..

Hari demi hari berlalu, aku ingat ape yang dah berlalu, biarlah berlalu.. tapi tak, rupe-rupenye ade udang disebalik batu.. 

Bende yang paling menyakitkan hati aku terjadi..
Bende yang menyebabkan title cerita ni, title die mcm ni..

Sorry, aku kene pegi kelas, nnti aku sambung.. hehe

[End of Part2]

Hello friends, to all the muslims, im wishing you selamat berpuasa, and selamat menyambut hari raya aildilfitri very soon.. haha, sedar tak sedar dah nak abes dah kita berpuasa..

Puasa ni bagus, selain daripada merehatkan perut, ia juga mengajar kita tentang erti kesabaran.. Mendidik kita supaya menjadi lebih sabar dan juga, bulan yang dimana kita boleh eksperimen sama ada kita boleh mengawal diri kita dari afsu kita sendiri.. ya, its all just ur nafsu puasa2 ni, because setan mmg dah takde nak kacau2 atau goda, jadi, mana-mana yang tak tertahan tu, paham-paham je lah, kuatnye nafsu anda.. hehe.. bab tu la yang nak dilatih kalau boleh..

Selain itu, inilah bulan yang dimana kita memaafkan orang2 lain, tentang kesilapan2 yang lalu.. ya, bukan pagi raya baru nak salam, seblom puasa tu patutnya dah mintak ampun kat semua orang, kalau tidak puasa sebulan tu dah takde maknanyer lagi… hurmm..

Enuff mukadimah there, lets get to the point, sebut pasal kesabaran dan maaf memaafkan ini, teringatlah saya akan kisah lama, an old tale, that somehow this morning lepas sahur, i came across the idea to write it.. (kesempatan ini diambil untuk memintak ampun kepada sapa2 yang membaca blog ini, saknyu)

Cerita yang tak berapa perlu diberitahu sebenarnye, tapi after quite sumtimes, i just wanted to share with u ppl, and mane2 part yang boley tu, korang amek la iktibar..

Banyak sangat, tak terkira kesabaran yang saya ada (pada saya dah cukup banyak la, because kalau tak, ade yang dah masuk ICU).. Saya hanya mampu diam dan diperbodoh-bodohkan.. dan part maaf tu, nak bagitau, dah lama ampunkan, betul, aku maafkan korang berdua, tentang ape yang korang dah buat kat aku, tapi lupa… tidak sama sekali, sorry arr.. mmg mcm pompuan sikit, tapi memang aku tak boleh lupa ape yang korang dah buat kat aku.. susah sangat beb, i keep telling myself to get over it, but, its just hard, almost impossible.. pasal bende ni melibatkan maruah aku, nama aku, and the yuckiest, suckiest part is, i cant get away from seeing 2 of you every single day, and seeing you around my friends, FRIENDS.. they are just there around my life, so, mmg takleh nak lupe lah kan.. bile tgk je muka, sakit je hati.. tapi nak buat camner.. sabar je la…

So, the story goes like this, (hahaha, sorry, intro panjang gile)..

Let me take you a few years back, where its the first place, the very first moment i get to know this one girl..
She was in my class, the very first day of my drawing class, kat situ ar aku jumpe die.. dalam kelas tu tak ramai pompuan pun, yela, engineering college, what do you expect?.. so, being the few girls in the class, aku pun saje2 je la, nak kacau2 sket, tegur2, ajar2 sket die ni, biasa la lelaki.. then i get to know that she owns a car, infact, a nice car.. since aku ni memang sangat2 berminat la dengan dunia permotoran, so i thought, "hey, this girl is cool" (cool factor=1).. so, aku pun try la untuk berkenalan dengan lebih rapat lagi..

    One fine monday morning, i was on my way to class, that time, hari2 aku berulang pegi kelas dari damansara ke bangi, sakit beb, haha, tapi aku suka..
Tengah2 drive tu, dekat highway KL-seremban, aku ternampaklah kereta die ni.. maklumlah, bukan susah nak spot, kereta cantik, nombor plet pun cantik, haha..

Ntah apesal ntah, aku rase nak try cucuk2 kereta die, (haha, tak sedar diri, awak drive wira jer).. tgh2 bawak laju2 tu, aku masuk belakang kereta die, cam biaselah, skill org ajak racing.. tanpa diduga, die layan beb.. hahaha.. giler arr.. aku igt girls takdela reti nak beracing-racing nik.. so, sampai ke depan gate uniten lah kami berlumba.. ramai jugaklah agaknya pakcik yang maku hamun kami kat jalanraya tu, cos bawak mcm setan (tak baik berlumba, tnggang dgn cermat).. Sampaai depan gate uniten, aku masuk, die terus.. wahaha, yang nak dibanggakan, aku sampai dulu, heheh.. maybe pengalaman kot, hehe.. satu harilah aku excited pasal bende ni.. ye la, "A girl who race on the street", how cool was that (cool factor=2)..

    Then aku masuklah kelas, kelas yg sama dengan die tu lah.. aku tgk die, haha, rasa nak gelak pun ade.. tapi, die buat cam tak layan jer.. ntah la, maybe tenion kot, pagi2 isnin ade org ajak berlumba, kalah pulak tu.. hehehe.. maybe la.. so class pun jalan arr cam biase, sampai abes kelas, aku pun nak pegi arr breakfast..

On the way to  breakfast, aku singgah la Shell bangi, minyak kete nak abes.. Nak dijadikan ceritera, awek ni pun tetiber ade pulak dekat petrol pump ni.. aiz, aku dah segan2 pulak.. nampak die kat dalam ‘Select’, tgh bayar, so, aku cam nak tggu arr die kluar dulu.. segan arr nak jumpe.. hehe (saya mmg pemalu orgnya).. agak2 die nak klua, aku pun masuk la, nak boh duit pam minyak.. on the way masuk tu, die tegur… "u budak class i kan?".. aku pun, takde la nak menyombong, ye, aku cakap.. then die kate, "tu ar, tgk muke macam kenal".. hahaha.. lawak la pulak.. pastu die pun angkat la tangan kluar, aku pun, just being friendly, angkat la balik..

then aku proceed to the pump, isi minyak, die pon dok isi jugak.. mase aku tgh pam, tetibe keta die dtg kat keta aku.. die berenti jap.. turunkan tingkap..

"You dah breakfast?"..
Aku cakap la, aku mmg nak pegi.. then die kate, why not pegi sama2..
aku pun okay je la.. since aku mmg nak mengenali die lebih rapat lagi.. then die kate meet at ‘anugerah‘, cos die nak balik uniten dulu amek kawan..

then aku kate, Okay.. pas isi minyak, aku call suresh (suresh ni classmate aku, dlm kelas yg sama).. aku ajak arr suresh ni dtg skali, cos segan arr nak pegi sorang2..
Sampai2 kat anugerah, die ah ade dgn kawan die, mmber baik die yang skarang ni dah jadi awek housemate aku.. haha.. borak borak borak, minum2, smpai tghari, then kitorang pun, pegi arr klass balik cam biasa..

Punye arr bangga ariktuh, haha, tetiber je ade org ajak minum.. aku admit, mmg aku kasiktau kawan2 sume pasal that day, cos last time pun aku ade cakap, aku nak try budak ni..
That time, mase tgh minum tu lah, aku dapat tau.. Die n suke clubbing, minum, n summore isap rokok.. hurm.. ape nak jadi bebudak melayu sekarang..
Tapi aku sendiri heran.. die ni, mmg TOTAL opposite dgn ape yg aku cari.. aku tak penah suke bebudak pompuan yg mcm ni punye type, summore, isap rokok pulak.. tapi mmg aku heran.. aku taktau kenapa dgn die aku rasa okay je.. ye la, nak jadi cerita..

So, that day abes mcm tu, and sume bende tu aku tak abes2 citer kat kawan2.. haha..

[End of Part 1]

Its been quite sumtimes since the last blog i’ve written..
Life is quite busy nowadays.. alot of assignments.. lots of class.. and i have to find someway to entertain myself too.. so, to make it balance, i got no time to stay at home and write.. hahah..
What to do laah… i have to score this semester.. my pointer had gone really bad.. ngahaha.. thats life i guess, heres always ups and down..

Following my everyday routine, i realized (did i spell this one correct?) that inside of me, is abit empty.. Yeah.. when you just what you had to do everyday, and you dont have anyone to remember, or care about each and every day.. Its almost like that-kind of empty.. When you dont have someone to love, then u know how it feels like..

Come to think of it, i read something in a magazine today, its wise words, it says that:

"Love is like, finding a carpark at a famous shopping mall.. On sundays"
"Its there, but we have to be very peka to see it, cari slow slow with patience, until you found it"..

Hey sounds quite logic.. and true.. and the thing is, ever since high school.. I always miss those parking lots.. I have waste a few chances.. and waste a few really nice girls out there.. and i really feel bad.. I dont know, maybe that time macam malu sangat.. Or maybe i didnt get a clear sign.. Maybe my fault, maybe their fault.. but anyway, there are better guys which is good at parking hunting, and they have take the position..

When i think deeply, love is not something we can just play, or decide in a day..
Its a huge commitment (spelling again).. thats what keeps on bothering me when i thought i wanna have someone to be loved.. I guess i am not ready for it yet, but inside, im hollow.. just like bamboo.. heheheh..
I want it, but i just cant..

In order to make my days feels better, i decided to join my college’s JammFest.. hahaha, Yes, i know, i’ve gone mad..
Its good in someway, i get to know a few new friends.. and some nice girls too, who plays wit the other bands (and they are very good).. rock chicks are cool..
And the result, our band lost at the Semifinals.. well, its not bad since we only practice for 2 days, we only get to know each other in 2 days, but the performance we did.. i am fully satisfied.. we work together pretty well, and it was one hell of a performance.. winning isnt everything guys, so chill.. (btw, my position is vocal, ngahaha)..
Guerilla Radio:

from left -
Syuk, Paan,
Am, Pod, Radi and me..

Thats about it for now.. i’ll write sumthin later.. And to those who read this, and felt  like i am talking about you.. i just wanna say, sorry.. maybe i didnt get the message, or im not good in parking hunting.. haha..
See ya’ll later..

13 January, Saturday Nite, again, this week im at USJ Karting track.. It already started to be my regular routine.. hehe, guess im addicted to drifting.. Maybe i should start collecting money, buy a Toyota KE70, or Cerifo A31, modd it and start drifting.. or maybe just become the first wira to drift, but first i have to fit in SR20det to replace my baby’s 4g15.. make it an FR car, and OFF i go.. sideways!

those are the thoughts runnin in my head while watchin this Hachiroku filled with engine form Honda s2000, goin sideways in the track, carrying aunties wit their kid, who also wants to experience how it feels to go sideways.. One complete lap, and i can see that the kid is smiling.. Heyhey, maybe he will start drifting when he grows up.. wonder hows it gonna be like in 10 years time..

Not much happening for this week, because i didnt bring the whole WOC group together (the parking is reserved for JSOC).. But i do bring a few friends who wants to feel how its like to go sideways.. Was planning to bring my fwens Arif and Imran along, but last minute change of plan, they couldnt make it..

So that nite, i leave quite early, then i head to Asia Cafe to play pool wit some fren.. And the nite goes on.. (Asia Cafe is Highly recomended if u want to wash u eyes)

Heres some pictures from that nite:

The 180sx that drift me last week.

The yellow coloured S2000 Hachiroku sideways

Anyway, this week, i wont be going to the track, and wont be joining my WOC fellas for TT, because im goin off to South Korea, again.. hehehe.. Now it winter time! and the highest temperature is 5 degree celcius.. woo, freaking cold, guess i have to start training (currently just wearing shorts with my aircond going full-blast)

Hehehe.. so, that it for this week, i will post something from Korea next week.. just a reminder, dont try to call me form this friday until next coming teusday. I wont be around.. tata!

My winter Suits!

6th January 2007, Saturday, i was out in the nite as usual.. go hang out with my wira fren for dinner.. when suddenly, one of them ask me to bring him to see the drift evet in USJ karting track..

So as usual, i make a few calls, tell this guy who is part of the organiser crew that we are going there to see it.. Then he ask me to get around 10 cars to join, not  such a big problem, but donno that nite, everyone seems to have their own plans. I only manage to bring 9.. yes, including me.. haha, just one car short..

So then, 4 of us (waikit, nizam, joo and me) wait at carlos USJ2, waiting for the rest of the mmbers to come. We gather first, and leave around 1030pm ( i think).

The track is just 5 minutes away from our yumcha place.. so then, before 11 o clock, we reach the track, and park our car nicely inside.. hehe, VIP parking space..

Once at the track, we stand by the trackside, watching the drifters doing their job. We have a few really good drifters in malaysia, it was quite impressive to see that this sport started to gather attention from everyone so fast like a lightning strike.. well, i think its because of the movies. It was a nice show, not just the cars, but the people around the track too (yeah, the girls) are absolutely marvelous..

As time flies, a couple of my frens decided to ask the organiser wether they can take us drifting inside the drift cars (actually all of you people can, by buying the D1 t-shirts, u will get a free ride) for free.. yeah, and they say, why not?.. Hey Hey! i was excited when i hear that.. partially gabra also, becoause i dont know how is it gonna be..

Then, my turn comes, i was taken into the 180SX (if not wrong, the drifter’s name is Smith, sorry if i got it wrong).. class-A drifter.. my heart started thumping, but it was overpowered  by the excitement.. haha.. without even putting my seatbelt on (tak sempat), he just say off we go, and started speeding down the track.. i was holding everything possible inside the car (hehehe), and just look infront, praying for safety and feel the ride.. it was really fun, especially when he drift, u can feel that he never brakes when entering the corner, and suddenly, the car slides sideways, and seeing…. duh.. i dunno how to describe it.. but it was damn  nice..

The drifter takes me for two rounds, because he spins out on the first round. ngehehe, i told him its because im heavy, and both of us laugh inside the car..
After i got out of the car, icant walk straight, abit dizzy, but overall, it was damn nice, and i would love to go again, maybe in a different drift car..

After the event ends at 2am, all of us gets a free run in the track before leaving. i do try to drift with my wira, but haha, was succesful but its not the same feeling..
To all of you reading this, i REALLY SUGGEST you go to USJ karting track on saturday night, and experience the drifting urself!.. seriously.. No harm trying, worth the experience.. its all new feeling of driving. Please, move ur arse next coming saturday.

p/s: here i would like to thank AngleD5 mmbers, especially Rudy and Hakim, for giving us all the special treatments.. We will come again.. hehehe!